Today was World Mental Health Awareness Day and I’m celebrating by entertaining the possibility that I’ve lost my mind. On the last open thread, spootyjim and I were discussing John Dies at the End. There’s a particular scene in which a character who has had some strange recent experiences calls a priest and asks what it must be like to be crazy. The priest replies that perhaps crazy people feel normal and think it’s really that the world is going crazy around them. That’s how I’ve felt this week.
Case in point, the Las Vegas Massacre investigation. Is there anyone out there who still believes that the official version of events is true (whatever it is this week) or that the investigation will ever reveal the whole truth? The revelation that the “hero” security officer was shot before the rampage even started and then calmly sat around for twenty minutes before meeting the cops defies explanation by itself. That the FBI and police got it so wrong all last week leads me to believe that somebody’s story changed in a big way…and yet they’re apparently not focusing the investigation on that person. This isn’t how this is supposed to go. In the final act, I have no doubt that ISIS will release the proof and demonstrate to the world that they’re more credible than the FBI. The world is that insane.
I’m not the type to call every single bad thing that happens a “false flag”. In fact, there aren’t any mass casualty events I consider to be fake. But no aspect of this story makes sense. Here I am feeling like I’m objectively evaluating the information, and yet the information is covered in crazy. I don’t believe the authorities and don’t feel the least bit bad about it.
With crises all over the world, the president is locked into a battle of wills with the NFL over standing for the national anthem. I guess, maybe, it’s good that he’s winning. But everyone has lost their minds over the issue–and they’ve lost perspective. For example, Jemele Hill hates Trump and disagrees with him on the anthem protests. So she adopted Trump’s position that the NFL should be boycotted. Whoah. The irony. For that, she got suspended, meaning that ESPN, the NFL, and Hill are pretty much just eating each other at this point.
Oh, and Hollywood is so fucking insane, that even Terry Crews isn’t safe from getting groped by slimy studio perverts.
It feels to me like everything is flying apart in the world. I keep stepping back and saying to myself, “You’re way too absorbed in the news warp. Disconnect for a bit.” But then the news finds me again and drops more crazy on my head. It’s been keeping me in this perpetual state of dumbfounded disbelief since about last Wednesday.
To be clear, I’m not depressed or suffering anxiety attacks or anything like that. I feel fine. Getting plenty of exercise, maintaining a proper diet, not on any medications and all. My sleep schedule is shit, but that’s not unusual. We did our dark music DJ thread and I got the negativity out of my system, as intended. But what’s been dogging me since the timeline change in Vegas is the sense that the floor is starting to drop from under reality. The Matrix is glitching and things are just different now from how they were, when things weren’t crazy. Is that true though? Was it ever never crazy?
I guess what I’m looking for is some validation. Is the world going crazy around us or am I just focusing too much on a few stupid things like an obsessed nut? There’s no way I’m the only person who sees the absurdity in everything going on. What I do wonder is whether others are convinced that we’re in some sort of cuckoo-land where no rules can apply and anything can happen next and probably will. And by “anything”, I mean “not anything good”. We’re going off the rails on a crazy train.
How is your grip on reality these days? Is it you or “them” who’s losing it? Do you find yourself getting frustrated, angry, or depressed? Or are you laughing it off and going with the flow as always? Because I think you’re crazy if you’re not seeing what I am.
Let’s check up on each other.